Wednesday, July 13, 2011

The days are long and the years, short

It's really true.

Today is Lucy's third birthday, and it seems like it was yesterday she was born.

I know we all say that, but

Lucy's arrival was particularly special because I fought hard to have a VBAC and had it. It was a transformational day for me in that it seemed like for once my body was doing what I wanted it to -- just being normal. This was the fruit, I think, of my yoga practice taking off during my pregnancy. (And of course I was lucky to have the support of my dear husband and my awesome doula, Kim Collins--) I was deeply connected to Lucy as she grew in my womb, and I was deeply connected to myself in my first year of motherhood. Josephine had just had her first birthday when it was time for Lucy to join us. It was an intense time. Carrying Lucy to just shy of 42 weeks was intense. Labor was intense. Two under two was about to be really intense.

It was obviously the start of many things: my dear daughter's life, our life as a family of four, Josephine's life as a big sister. But for me, it was really the start of possibilities -- the importance of my yoga practice and how it could shape me had been revealed. All that intensity was possible because I had found something steady and comfortable in my life -- yoga. It's a kick now to watch Lucy giggle and drop down into a three-legged dog, her favorite pose -- one I know I did a lot of in my prenatal classes. Maybe it is a legacy, maybe not. But it sure feels like the seeds have been planted. I hope I can keep giggling as I try new poses and refine the ones I love. I sure got a giggle on Monday, when I lurched into my first assisted handstands.

With Guru Purnima upon us, I am so grateful to my many, many teachers -- yoga and otherwise. I've added a few new ones to the list this week, especially Amy Ippoliti and Sadie Nardini, who have infused new inspiration into my practice. But my most powerful teachers are my daughters, for sure. Their giggles and cries teach me something new everyday. Jai!

4 comments:

adan said...

so beautifully said, could feel your happiness ;-)

asrinshahabudin@yahoo.com said...

Beautifully written..I love it.You are a wonderful mother and yogini..above all,I can feel that you are a wonderful person..=)

nancy said...

you are back! missed you!!! xo

Laura said...

Love that you were able to have a VBAC! I'd love to hear what you did yoga-wise during pregnancy. I've often contemplated how, if we do get pregnant, it will change my practice and how hard that may be to deal with. It sounds like it empowered you and carried you through a long pregnancy and intense labor. That is wonderful! I think yoga in pregnancy is such a pivotal thing - I recommend it to all my mommies. I'd just like to keep up more of my Ashtanga practice and not have to do only prenatal yoga.